The older I get the more and more I am realizing the loss of innocence and also the loss of self-right.
Now when I say innocence It means alot of things,
Innocence;
a : freedom from guilt or sin through being unacquainted with evil
c : freedom from legal guilt of a particular crime or offense d
(1) :
freedom from guile or cunning : simplicity
(2) : lack of worldly experience or sophistication e : lack of knowledge : ignorance
Now I don't agree with alot of these; now before I say what i am about to I would like to say that I am a christian. And the best way to sum up and explain my faith is a quote by the leader singer of Anberlin; Stephen Chrisitan
"[My faith] affects every single aspect of my life, but I'm not a preacher, I'm an entertainer."
But i don't think innocence is a freedom from sin or guilt.
If that were true no one would be innocent ever, we're all sinful (interesting with a firery background no? Not really supposed to be judgemental) and we will all feel guilty for something at some point. Lack of Knowledge, that's bull. That is ignorance and not innocence. Unfortunately innocence is often pegged with ignorance, which isn't true.
Being innocent, in my mind, is being sinful but not letting it change who you are.
Being innocent is making mistakes, learning about the terrible things in the world but not letting them hurt you in such a way that you give up. Innocence is the core belief that things will turn out okay...
Or maybe not? That might all be total bull too...as i write this i am finding that I dont know what innocence is, or more that I cannot define it.
Regardless. I hate the loss of innocence. Ahh I'm rambling now....
There are too many things right now that are just....shit. Honestly.
Also I will swear in here, I don't havequalms about swearing. Theyre just words that unfortunately have had a socially unacceptable association pegged to them. People take offense to them some how, usually when theyre not being used toward them. More often then not people just use them towards no one. As just another word, a descriptor, an exclamation. If you don't use swear words, good for you? But i use them because the express something just the right way. And if youre offended by them then I suppose you could just stop reading now couldnt you? but That's enough of my little tangent.
I'll get back to you on the loss of self right? I don't know.
